Thursday, July 22, 2010

Wake Up The Sun...

It's like screaming your head off and no one can hear...

Actually, that's exactly what it is.

I can see the potential inside of me, but I can't get it to come out all the time...And then I wrestle with wondering if my vision of me is even close to God's vision of me...Obviously I can never see the full potential of what God wants me to be, nor would I ever know one hundred percent if I was there, but man alive do I want to live for more than I am sometimes...

I can feel something inside me that can change the world for Christ...Not in a selfish way, but under the grace and mercy of God, provided he chooses to use me in whatever endeavor I partake in...And what an honor it is to be used by God, for anything, big or small...

But do you get what I am saying? I've said it before...I want so badly to do something that is destined to fail unless God intervenes...

Sadly, I am not willing to be patient enough sometimes...I am not willing to be disciplined enough...I am not willing to quiet myself and listen...I am not willing to pour into His word to find my place in this grand scheme of life...

What a wretch I am.

But He saved this wretch.

He still wants me to do His work.

He still wants me to carry Him inside me.

But more importantly, He simply wants me to love Him, and love others.

See, I get ahead of myself...I want to do the "cool" "fun" work, without doing the "harder" more "disciplined" work...I want to have my cake and eat it too...

Yes He has grace and forgives me, but that gives me no excuse to sit and do nothing, expecting to be used for great things when I am not as willing as I say I am...

However, this does not change the fact there is a passion inside of me, and maybe you, to change the world...And by world, that could mean anything from the smallest of families to the largest of countries and continents...We could live our entire lives and never see the fruits of our labor...But would it still be worth it?

Of course.

There is no question.

But now we must wake up.

We must not sit down and be idle any longer.

I cannot sit down and be idle any longer.

We must rise from the dead.

I SIMPLY WANT TO BE ALIVE.



"Wake up, O sleeper, rise from the dead, and Christ will shine on you."
Ephesians 5:14

9 comments:

Alyssa said...

perfectly said, commonly felt.

Anonymous said...

good stuff. very good stuff.

child of God said...

wow! This is truly what I needed to hear at this time! God shows up in unexpected ways but He DOES show up!

Thanks for leaving this post!

Lozza said...

Hey

Good blog.

Loved the quote on the header so much I've quoted it on mine.

Have a good day now.
Loz

D-a-R-e said...

This is really good :)
You have a writer's potential huh?
I love writing, I really do. Could you help me...?
I don't write what I feel in my blog because I am scared... but I want to!

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Lisa said...

Well done - beautifully expressed, and over the course of my life I have discovered that God works on me when I am to busy being busy, and I tend to miss it. I wish I had thought to ask some of the questions you have asked when I was younger, but you have asked the correct one, when you quiet yourself and listen, then you will find what you yearn for. Peace and prayers, Lisa

Karen said...

Wow... God is at work in you. I was meant to come across your blog today. I am blown away at how God works, and how he puts things in our lives (or blogs) when we most need it. Keep up your blogging- you're changing the world!