Thursday, May 24, 2007

Another World...

So....It's been awhile...My bad...I guess it was just one less thing for you to read though... :)

Anyways...Yesterday, I went to another youth leader's house to have dinner...If you don't know, me and a few buds (Abe and Jerm and Bob) are helping with an inner-city youth group in Jackson...So after dinner at Jesse (the other youth leader) and with Scott (a huge Hawaiian who is another youth leader) we all decided to hop in a couple cars and go around to some of the kids' houses just to see them and say hi and whatnot. Now, I have lived in Jackson all my life and driven through it every week. I lived in the ghetto persay when I was really young on the north side, but I have never really walked around the worse parts of Jackson. I may seem like I am just a whiteboy with enough money to keep himself on a nice side of town, which I am, but dude, I don't care who you are...The lifestyle and how the people live is completely the opposite of anything you know...I live about 5 miles from one of the kid's houses, and it's like stepping onto Mars...Just a completely different world...Everything is run down and you can tell a lot of people can't take care of themselves the way they need to...Cars are rolling down the street with a huge system and 18 inch rims while people sit needy of the street corner...It's basically the most uncomfortable place I have ever been in...And I love it...I have never before seen so much need for Jesus anywhere....I know He's not a popular dude around those parts...But I can't wait to live aroudn there and just throw myself into the culture and get knocked around (maybe literally, who knows)...I know I won't fit in...But maybe that's how it's supposed to be...Maybe us guys can change a few things, even if it's only with the kids at youth group...All I know is that it's going to be one crazy ride...

Saturday, May 12, 2007

Empty Words...

I have this stuff festering inside of me that just needs to come out...In short, some are not who they seemed to be anymore...Some who taught me how to be a Christian has taken their own path of off the main trail...So I wrote these lyrics I hope to put to some music (screaming preferably :)...And it more or less gives a brief overview of what the last few years of my life have been...You probably could have figured out some of that on your own, but what the heck... Have a splendid day, all of you...:)


From the beginning you spoke to me the truth
You told me all about how life should be lived
I listened to you, and my eyes were opened
My life became a story, a song, a worthy cause
You were with me all the time, by my side
We battled together and dreamed together
We loved together and cried together
Thank you for your time

But then
Slowly the haze filled the room
Your image started to slip away
I could not see who you were anymore
I could not remember your name
You were changing and fading and running
All the things you taught me were thrown away
I searched for them, but they were gone

I became too afraid to find them and gave up
Only to find that there may be some hope
Again, Lucifer took hold of that and ripped it away
He left me standing in the desert, with only an image and story
I reached for your hand, but you were too far gone
Will you ever come back someday?

So I fall to my knees, begging for your life
Begging the One to rescue you from the depth
Hoping you'll listen and hear His voice
Hoping you'll know who you used to be
Just promise me this one thing, just one thing
That you will be with me in the end