Tuesday, March 03, 2009

My Head and Heart...

Something has been bugging me lately about how I have been handling my relationships...Not just female, but those in particular I guess...I have had an agenda with them...This all sounds so middle-schoolish too, but with girls, I have maybe talked to them or given them attention not just to make friends, but for potential for a girlfriend someday...Now that I have been thinking about it, I don't think that is a good approach or a Godly approach...They are my sisters in Christ...Made in the image of God...

Why then, do I think like a middle-schooler? My first thought when I see my sisters in Christ are not honorable to them as such...Instead, I need to be looking at them as friends and people who can be a part of my life in such ways...

I've been in this place in my life where girls are on my mind all the time, and none of the time...I honestly feel like I am 14 years old or something...What's funny is that I just can't connect my heart and my head...In my head, I know that dating is not a necessity and that life single is great as well...I have lived in it pretty much my whole life...I love it...But for some reason, I can't tell my heart that I don't want to feel like I want to have a girlfriend...It's odd...

At the center, God is there...I know that putting this and any part of my life in his control is the only way to go...And I know that looking at His daughters with pure intent and a solid heart is the only way to go as well...He'll show the way for sure...

Man, reading this back to myself makes me think I have a longer way to go than I thought...Sorry if you had to read this and the maturity level was low...I'm not sure why...

5 comments:

Me. Thats all. said...

Its funny because I've been thinking this same exact thing (and my last short post was pretty much about this) It is scary to me that I'm looking at all of my girl friends and wondering if they're good potential girlfriends, because its not fair to them, even if they don't know it.

I have been struggling to find a way to tell myself that a girlfriend is not needed, and when God wants me to have one, I'll have one. SO you are not alone my friend. I will continue to pray for you in this.

kayci said...

jake that was like really beautiful honestly and as a female it is really cool to hear you say that

Abe said...

sure not needed... i'll give you that... but enjoyable? Ehh...

mel said...

I think girls do the same thing. In that we look for good potential boyfriends/husbands in the company of male friends we keep. I don't think it's a bad thing as long as it's a search that is lead by God. In saying that....the end result can be a beautiful connection with someone special.

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