Thursday, September 25, 2008

Seek God First...

So, this year so far has definitely been way different than any of the past...I am basically in a full time leadership position, and it's considered a job by title...Of course I don't think of it like that, but I have never been paid to invest in lives before...It's kind of cool...Also something I have been realizing is that I have not been trusting God with my future like I thought...One of the areas revolves around girls...I have never dated as a Christian, and I really saw myself cruising through school single, which I have no problem with...My problem lies in the fact that I kept feeling this pressure by something, maybe campus, maybe the nice atmosphere, I can't quite put my finger on it...I kept feeling like I was supposed to be pursuing girls...Not saying that it is wrong to do so, but I was starting to lose my view of trusting in God for the future...I want so badly to have a God-centered relationship to the fullest that I am scared out of my mind to date...There are a few girls here on campus I would love to get to know better, because in no way do I know them well enough to think about dating them...But then I think about other areas...Am I to marry a girl from home? From high school? Someone I don't even know yet? I hate not knowing the future, yet I love the mystery...What I am realizing is that my problem lies in my lack of seeking God and nothing else...Matthew 6 tells to seek God first and all other things will fall into place...Where did I lose that mindset? So much pressure gets taken off that God did not intend me to have...I won't think the girl problem is such a big deal because God's plan is bigger than everything going on around me...I long to be in the middle of that plan, not just for the girl issue, but for everything else as well...This is weird...I haven't had the girl issue at the forefront like this for a long time...I haven't made a big deal about it before...Never was worried...Basically I want to flat out just seek God and not worry about anything else...I want my longing for God to radiate and attract anyone for anything...If I want to have a wife someday with these traits I admire, I better make dang sure I have them too...


"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Jeremiah 29:11


Why is it so hard to trust that?

8 comments:

Carly said...
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Carly said...

It is so hard to trust that because you are HUMAN Jake! We aren't God and we will never come close.

You will find someone Jake and you just have to trust God on that one.

Try not to picture what that woman will be like, don't have too many expectations when it comes to finding the perfect Christian woman. God may bring a woman into your life that isn't a Christian. He may bring someone to you that needs to be saved.

Relax about it Jake, God is with us :)

P.S Scarlett deleted my other comment. . . oh the joys of young kids!

mel said...

You're right on track Jake! Trusting is a hard thing to do... I know because I'm right there with you on that! Keep looking to God and know that it's when we're in the "wilderness" feeling "lost" that's often the greatest time for seeing and knowing God on a greater level. We stop looking inward and start looking upward. Like Carly said..Don't have too many expectations. I love your posts! BTW...I always have to read them twice, because there's so much truth and honesty in them!Takes me a second time to get it all... :)

CoCo said...

I stumbled across your blog one day and well...I wanted to tell you that your entry really spoke to me and it's encouraging to hear someone like you speak of this.

_abe said...

that a baby. thanks for coming down and seeing me. you da man!

Julie said...

Ummm...no matter what anyone says, Jake, you will not be in a romantic relationship with an unsaved woman....that's against the Word, and therefore NEVER God's will. I know you already know that. (Sorry, I get a little fired up about that, you're like a brother, and I only want the best for you.)

Way to be honest with yourself. That's SO key. Remember, you'll never be "ready" for a relationship. The beauty of dating a godly person is that you get to learn and grow TOGETHER, sharpening each other, encouraging each other. Amen??

I'm not saying that you should rush into anything....by all means, take your time. Just realize that you're a work in progress, as all of us are....your future spouse will understand that and want to help you become more of the godly man that you are.

Glad things are going well. I miss you too. You and I and Jeremy really should go camping sometime. That shouldn't be a problem....since we only live in three different states. ;-)

_abe said...

julie... can i come camping??? or... is that a kind of "by invite only" event? i see how it is.... :)

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